It is so hard as a single parent to do everything you possibly can do to raise you children right in a world that is upside down. I have five girls and the youngest one has always been my challenge. I adopted her at birth, and never hid the fact she was adopted because I did not want to ever lie to her and have her hate me when she found out the truth. Over the years she has been diagnosed with ADHD, ODD, Attachment Disorder, etc. She is a straight “A” student.. however her friend choice not so good. I never have been more glad that school was coming to an end. Defiant, hanging around a 17 year old freshman in high school who puts weed in his mask, a group of kids that have been talking about hurting me because of her behavior she is not allowed to go out and hang with them very often or have her cell phone. Found that she was starting to dabble into cutting, and loves to wear emo clothing. (yes she restarts therapy this coming week) I guess I just do not understand what drives kids now a days to even think about hurting themselves or someone else. I also do not understand why she hates me for adopting her. Either way she would have hated me so in this situation I still would have lost. Have any of you been through this? I am so lost and hurt…I feel like I have to watch my back, hard to sleep at night wondering what her and her friends are plotting. Right now she is without electronics until after she sees a therapist. My heart is shattered into a thousand pieces, bleeding a slow bleed surrounded by fear…
Yours truly, T 